i'm fond of these two words (a command, btw) since about a decade ago, this was the prototype of youth reload (which started as youth service). a lot of times we feel as if we have to keep giving that we run dry. it seems as if life has too much expectations and we gasp for breath as we try to catch up. we find ourselves lost in the daily hustle and bustle that we fail to take time to step back and enjoy not just the gifts in life but the gift of life itself.
indeed we can never give what we don't have and we can only put up with so much pretension that eventually all facades break loose and we come to a painful realization that we no longer are "okay". so why do we respond this way about 90% of the time? perhaps we fear vulnerability. or maybe we are more comfortable doing without the prying eyes of those who seem so keen. most probably because we are used to being indifferent towards ourselves that a simple caring question of howdy? pushes us into defensiveness and sensitivity.
looking through the years when i technically "survived" going around in circles yet getting nowhere, i realized that weariness actually comes when we try to be who we are not and not only do we fool others, we deceive ourselves even more. yes, pretension can be wearisome, especially if we act as if everything depends on us: we say things out of our knowledge, make decisions based on our experiences and do things with our own strength.
yet we are merely creatures, made to operate on the standard of the Creator rather than our own. we were never made to exist by and for ourselves. that is why we are called vessels, made to channel love, grace, compassion, power and strength. we are not our own source. we can never be the source because there is only one... God. if we want to keep moving about, then the only way is to get connected and stay connected. that's right: plug in!
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